what a past couple of weeks.
I almost lost the computer thanks to a couple of nasty viruses and malware... had to reformat the whole friggen computer.. yes.. the brandnew computer.. harddrive was almost toast ( KNOCK ON WOOD).. you think it would be warranted? NOPE.. not for viruses.. spent a week at 4-6 hours a day on the phone with a tech from norton who tried to manually remove these things,.. nope they just kept multiplying till they crashed the entire computer... but it still cost me 118 american dollars to norton on my visa and then another 120 at best buy to fix it.. then i got another anti virus program that hopefully will be better and they will catch things before they can lodge into my computer... but a warning to everyone,,., there is apparently some nasty shit out there esp on facebook I was told... you can NOT get rid of anti virus 360 or trojan vundu once you get it.. it will fuck up your computer big time. My computer was doing some crazy shit before it died. Needless to say you wont be seeing me on facebook for awhile lol.. I did go on the other night with russells ps3.. (since you cant get viruses on that)... and I changed all my passwords on that since these are spyware/hacker programs.. and I even went so far as to go into my actual bank and to customer service and reported everything.. and changed everything right down to my security codes and questions.. you never know.. i also reported my security issues to other people and sites (and also cogeco) i deal with online as well and changed all my passcodes.
I personally dont think anyone really gives a shit on facebook anyway.. anyone i usually banter with hasnt even friggen noticed i am MIA.. not one comment has been emailed to me, questioning my absence... and its been well over a week since i have said or posted a thing- and I am on there everyday.. you would think my absence would be NOTICED lol.
I signed Devon up for Baseball for summer yesterday with the special Olympics. The man I talked to was awesome. we ended up talking for almost 2 hours. He has 2 sons with fragile x ( This is the genetic disorder that they will be testing devon for- so how ironic is this?) so we hit it off right away and obviously had a lot in common... although his kids are in their 20's. hes been basically down the same road we have... same crappy system.. they go through Hamilton now.
I am looking forward to devon ( and US!) having a comfortable outlet where he can be himself.. have fun and be involved in something.
Russell's starting to show signs again of mania.. its starting to scare me. hes UP UP UP. getting aggitated easily.. sooo hyper.. not sleeping well.. eating more again.. starting to act weird again and really silly.. we go wednesday to Toronto.. i am scared to screw around with his meds.. but i think he needs something else or an increase.. and if i have dr shapir change things basically we are saying goodbye now to dr santher for good then... i am scared. His iprc meeting did NOT go well.. i am terrified for him for highschool.. hes functioning at a grade 6 level in all classes and he will be in a grade nine applied level come september.. NO modifed at all.. they are pushing stamford.. which is scary.. its the equivelant to kernahan... if he goes there i might as well send him to the wolves.. I am sick of meeting with teachers and board members who just sit there and fake smile at you and you KNOW they dont give a flying fuck either...even if he was at a grade 7 level right now.. but 6?? how is he going to pass anything? what am I setting him up for? and if his mood changes again and he starts to regress what then? I am biting my nails...
He goes in for his surgery thursday. so wednesday - Toronto.. thursday, surgery at 7 AM!!! then friday march break starts,.. I will have a nervous breakdown by saturday... both kids home.. me alone with the kids,.. russell whining in pain and an obvious shift in mood..same with devon... i will need vallium ;)
This weather is horrible.. my legs back and all joints are killing me.. the damp is bad. I want to crawl into bed.
anyway... thats it for now..
wish me luck this week
Monday, March 9, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
heavy thinking for a monday morning
another weekend over-
monday is always a day of rest and reprieve for me. ( knock on wood!!) THIS is my weekend. MY day. The day I send the kids on the bus.. come home.. grab my coffee and my shoulders drop about 1/2 a foot and I can finally take those deep relaxing breaths that I havent taken since LAST monday. That is unless someone calls me wanting something from me.. sigh.
I love being alone. I never used to feel that way- years ago I always needed to have company or social interaction of somesort, constantly- now i have become a recluse- a hermit of sorts.. well.. not really.. my life is way too demanding for that. However I love being alone- I love the peace and quiet and relish the far and few between moments that I actually GET it now. I love it when its soo quiet that i can hear the dog breathing- or the train behind the house- or just the fact that noone is yelling for me to do something or other. In the summer i rarely get on the computer. I get up at the crack of dawn when the kids/dean/animals are still asleep, i slip outside and sit on the veranda and have my coffee and watch nothing. I am happy to watch my little street and the forest around us wake up. I love being in the country now. Its my time to think. My time to destress and prepare for the day ahead. My time to appreciate all the little things I have in my life that bring me such great joys and how to improve on things .. i set my long and short term goals or sometimes just prop my feet up and relax.. and just appreciate the warmth of my cup and my drag of my smoke.
I have been thinking alot lately about different things. Sometimes I wish i could just take my head off and put it on the table.. or shut it off with a switch. Lately however religion has been coming into my head - I have been having so many conflicting thoughts, emotions, guilt.. I dont know who to talk to about this at all. A lot of what if's... a lot of questionings. I believe in God. Thats a definate thing... I believe in the old testament.. as far as thats the God I believe in... what I am questioning is my faith as a Christian... and of course then I have guilt. I was raised as an anglican... attended the anglican church faithfully for years and years.. even went over zealous a couple times... but always had this questioning and then guilt. I remember asking my auntie kay- where do Jews go when they die if they dont believe in Christ? ( I was dating a jew at the time- my auntie kay being the biggest baptist bible thumper around- i thought was the right person to ask ) she told me.. why to hell of course! SHOCK... I never could accept this. I thought how could MY God- who is supposed to be a loving and forgiving God send millions of people to hell? and if what about other people? the muslims, buddists, islamics etc? They were all going to hell??!! Now I am sure other forms of Christianity will say no thats not the case.. God WOULD accept them ALL into heaven... right? hmmm... then wouldnt that defeat the purpose of christianity>? of becoming reborn? about accepting "the lord" into your heart and that he died for your sins? so YOU could go to heaven? It didnt make sense. I asked my minister- he couldnt give me a straight answer either. I also asked the cannon if Adam and Eve were the first man and woman on earth... were they Neanderthal? and if God made them in " his own image" did that made HIM look like a neanderthal too? he couldnt give me a straight answer either... I think i was 8...
I think Dean is Definately Jewish. Thats pretty obvious with the secrets his family have had since ww2 ( the last name change- hans's sister and father in concentration camps, the whole mental and bitterness they have and weirdness they get- the stories about his mother and/about hitler and the apparent physical characteristics they all share. It wouldnt really surprise me either once the genetic testing comes back we find out that we are too on my mother's side. it would made complete sense... too many things definately would make more sense... The fact that people have mistaken both Dean AND myself ( and definately my mother)for being jewish for as long as i can remember...A Jewish name has now been passed down for 4 generations of woman on my mothers side when they were supposedly christians in the old country? I find it odd.. esp. since we dont know ANYTHING .. NO history at all predating my great grandparents coming over to Canada from austria. No idea who anyone was- no names or places or religion... nothing. when they came to Canada they changed their name- Anglicized it or bastardized it as most people did... and thats when we have records from- then till now. Gees, my great grandmother barely spoke english- I dont remember much of her- she died at 99 years old in her house on the couch. she hadnt walked in several years... really hard of hearing.. 2 days before she died, my auntie Mimi heard her get up and WALK into the kitchen to the back door.. she went to her in shock and asked,.. where are you going mama? she told her " I am going HOME" then fell on the floor when she realized where she was. I was 14. She was born Annie Freidrich in 1886, married Nichola Oziejuk ( Ossichuck) when she was 15. They came to Canada ( landed in Manitoba) and then had 6 children from Manitoba to Thorold Ontario where they settled)- .. 4 kids survived... John ( my mums dad) Miriam, Katherine and Frances. My Great grandfather died in 1948 of heart problems so she was a widow for 38 years. Apparently other family landed in Manitoba as well- both my great grandmothers and great grandfathers sides... we have no clues about them.. other then my great grandads brother was a hair dresser and my great grandmothers family were farmers who made cheese of somekind...
I have always been tempted to sign up for ancestry.com but i wouldnt know how and where to start,.. for one there are several spellings we have for the last names.. and several places they were supposedly from...
until next time.. i am getting too hungry to sit here any longer.. :p
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Su
monday is always a day of rest and reprieve for me. ( knock on wood!!) THIS is my weekend. MY day. The day I send the kids on the bus.. come home.. grab my coffee and my shoulders drop about 1/2 a foot and I can finally take those deep relaxing breaths that I havent taken since LAST monday. That is unless someone calls me wanting something from me.. sigh.
I love being alone. I never used to feel that way- years ago I always needed to have company or social interaction of somesort, constantly- now i have become a recluse- a hermit of sorts.. well.. not really.. my life is way too demanding for that. However I love being alone- I love the peace and quiet and relish the far and few between moments that I actually GET it now. I love it when its soo quiet that i can hear the dog breathing- or the train behind the house- or just the fact that noone is yelling for me to do something or other. In the summer i rarely get on the computer. I get up at the crack of dawn when the kids/dean/animals are still asleep, i slip outside and sit on the veranda and have my coffee and watch nothing. I am happy to watch my little street and the forest around us wake up. I love being in the country now. Its my time to think. My time to destress and prepare for the day ahead. My time to appreciate all the little things I have in my life that bring me such great joys and how to improve on things .. i set my long and short term goals or sometimes just prop my feet up and relax.. and just appreciate the warmth of my cup and my drag of my smoke.
I have been thinking alot lately about different things. Sometimes I wish i could just take my head off and put it on the table.. or shut it off with a switch. Lately however religion has been coming into my head - I have been having so many conflicting thoughts, emotions, guilt.. I dont know who to talk to about this at all. A lot of what if's... a lot of questionings. I believe in God. Thats a definate thing... I believe in the old testament.. as far as thats the God I believe in... what I am questioning is my faith as a Christian... and of course then I have guilt. I was raised as an anglican... attended the anglican church faithfully for years and years.. even went over zealous a couple times... but always had this questioning and then guilt. I remember asking my auntie kay- where do Jews go when they die if they dont believe in Christ? ( I was dating a jew at the time- my auntie kay being the biggest baptist bible thumper around- i thought was the right person to ask ) she told me.. why to hell of course! SHOCK... I never could accept this. I thought how could MY God- who is supposed to be a loving and forgiving God send millions of people to hell? and if what about other people? the muslims, buddists, islamics etc? They were all going to hell??!! Now I am sure other forms of Christianity will say no thats not the case.. God WOULD accept them ALL into heaven... right? hmmm... then wouldnt that defeat the purpose of christianity>? of becoming reborn? about accepting "the lord" into your heart and that he died for your sins? so YOU could go to heaven? It didnt make sense. I asked my minister- he couldnt give me a straight answer either. I also asked the cannon if Adam and Eve were the first man and woman on earth... were they Neanderthal? and if God made them in " his own image" did that made HIM look like a neanderthal too? he couldnt give me a straight answer either... I think i was 8...
I think Dean is Definately Jewish. Thats pretty obvious with the secrets his family have had since ww2 ( the last name change- hans's sister and father in concentration camps, the whole mental and bitterness they have and weirdness they get- the stories about his mother and/about hitler and the apparent physical characteristics they all share. It wouldnt really surprise me either once the genetic testing comes back we find out that we are too on my mother's side. it would made complete sense... too many things definately would make more sense... The fact that people have mistaken both Dean AND myself ( and definately my mother)for being jewish for as long as i can remember...A Jewish name has now been passed down for 4 generations of woman on my mothers side when they were supposedly christians in the old country? I find it odd.. esp. since we dont know ANYTHING .. NO history at all predating my great grandparents coming over to Canada from austria. No idea who anyone was- no names or places or religion... nothing. when they came to Canada they changed their name- Anglicized it or bastardized it as most people did... and thats when we have records from- then till now. Gees, my great grandmother barely spoke english- I dont remember much of her- she died at 99 years old in her house on the couch. she hadnt walked in several years... really hard of hearing.. 2 days before she died, my auntie Mimi heard her get up and WALK into the kitchen to the back door.. she went to her in shock and asked,.. where are you going mama? she told her " I am going HOME" then fell on the floor when she realized where she was. I was 14. She was born Annie Freidrich in 1886, married Nichola Oziejuk ( Ossichuck) when she was 15. They came to Canada ( landed in Manitoba) and then had 6 children from Manitoba to Thorold Ontario where they settled)- .. 4 kids survived... John ( my mums dad) Miriam, Katherine and Frances. My Great grandfather died in 1948 of heart problems so she was a widow for 38 years. Apparently other family landed in Manitoba as well- both my great grandmothers and great grandfathers sides... we have no clues about them.. other then my great grandads brother was a hair dresser and my great grandmothers family were farmers who made cheese of somekind...
I have always been tempted to sign up for ancestry.com but i wouldnt know how and where to start,.. for one there are several spellings we have for the last names.. and several places they were supposedly from...
until next time.. i am getting too hungry to sit here any longer.. :p
ttfn
Su
Saturday, February 21, 2009
cooking classes?? in a recession? hmmm
I would like to give cooking classes.. in my home.. you supply the meal idea you want to cook and the MAIN ingredients.. I will supply the pantry ingredients and equipment and of course my professional expertise... I will only charge for labour ( depending also on how many we cook for) with my overhead and costs already factored in- per hour. so- you would get to take home a delicious meal cooked already by an expert ( with a culinary management degree) and shown how to do it ( you participating of course) already portioned out to whatever amounts we have made in take out containers to take home to your family or whoever to enjoy... great concept.. but in a recession who the hell esp HERE in Niagara is gonna pay for such a service.. hmmm....anyone KNOW of anyone interested???
my week feb- 20th 2009
another saturday ho hum
Devon woke me up at 7am because he desperately needed to find the lego stormtroopers he slept with. After HE finally found them i made coffee and stumbled into the games room only to find that russell and robbie had stolen the modem once again to play ps3 in russells bedroom late last night... and left me an inapproriate obscene picture that says to SUE from your SON on it... hmmm time for a lecture when they got up.
Its been a long week. when IS it not a long week? dean came home late tuesday afternoon, very very tired. We had dinner and watched a movie with the kids and went to bed. Wed. he took russell to Toronto.. he came home around 230.. he had stopped at the seaway mall and picked me up one of the really nice candles i liked and an oil diffuser... then we had dinner... played wii for a bit, watched tv went to bed lol.-
oh yeah his sister from montreal called- she wants to have a big 60th anniversary party for deans parents in may. I am sitting there listening thinking ,... hmm BAD BAD idea... they will HATE it.. they HATE "hoopla" they will refuse to let us pay for dinner.. there will be a huge fight... dean will have to take his vacation he usually takes in the summer THAT weekend... and i will spend the entire time pretending our family is normal... angela has never even MET devon and hasnt seen russell since dean and i got married- so he was 5. so what do we do- hey ang! nice to see you! this is your nephew you have never seen before! this is his list of diagnosis's and those of russells too? you cant NOT say anything.. its pretty obvious.. esp. if you plan on spending a whole WEEKEND being around us.. and dean goes an invites them to STAY HERE TOO- hahaha i said um no...ironically when we went to see deans parents yesterday we found out deans mum wants to take hans away on a surprise trip that weekend lol.so much for THAT idea!!
I wish deans family would COMMUNICATE. even when i was trying to suggest alternative anniversary plans he took it as a personal attack and started getting hostile... i said look i am not the enemy here.. i am only trying to help. noone says anything.. he talks to ang once maybe twice a year and he hasnt talked to delia in YEARS AND YEARS. hasnt seen her in 8. Its doesnt help everyone lives so far apart or that they are sooo MANY YEARS in age apart. noone is close. noone shares ANYTHING.. unlike My FAMILY lol... gees my mother knows everything that goes on in my life..i said to mrs bilski yesterday that devon had autism, she said i dont know what that is, and in a voice meaning she had noone intention of finding out nor did she really care.- i can see why dean doesnt bother.. but he gets so defensive when you say anything derogitory against his parents either.. always defending them... thats their WAY... whatever, ... theres is no excuse for their behaviour.. for their coldness.... I know dean feels the same way. he hates it too.. what they say, how they act.. hes mortified. but they are also his parents.. and GOD only knows how they treated him as a child... you have to OBEY us.. we are your parents.. he was prob. terrified of them... mr bilski terrifies ME even in his 80s. he has this look about him.. its feral and crazy. whatever he was subjected to when he was a child in wartime has made him mental.I have tried desperately to piece the puzzle based on stories hes told us ... I am pretty convinced their family were jews forced to alter their entire lives.. and i am pretty sure he lost his older sister in a camp. My compassion wants to love them.. my love for GOD wants me to help them and love them... but its difficult to even think of them without hostility and for that i feel terrible guilt. I asked dean if he would be shocked if he found out if we were of jewish blood once the genetics testing was done... he said no. but even if he had papers to prove we were genetically linked to "sons of Arron' Mr bilski wouldnt believe it.. then he said ... but he might have known right along though right? as far as my side.. it wouldnt shock me in the least... and it wouldnt shock anyone whos def. met my mother ... lol maybe thats why the bilskis have had it in for me for the past 20 years.... they could sniff it in me lol... they had " jewdar" lol they have always refused to call my mother MIRIAM... always referred to her as MARIAN hahaha and blamed me for everything the jews did to them... cuz the "jews did it to themselves... they were greedy"... I really dont think mr bilski goes around spewing his anger about jews to just anyone.. just me... why? I have always told him what a good anglican i was... hmmm see they thought MY family was jewish from day one.. and never took no for an answer. they once told me deanie should never ever have married "outside of his race"... i said what... HUMAN? lol i didnt get it then... i assumed they meant german... which i thought was soo stupid... all of their daughters married french or other nationalities,... and in fact our family was from austria on my mothers side.. so... how close can you get what dear ole Hitler was in fact from Austria? NOW i get it.. they think I am a jew! ;)
ok enough rambling about the Bilskis.. its giving me heartburn and yes i did have dried out cake and maccroons on the menu yesterday :)
we went to the speghetti dinner thursday night at the port robinson community centre. it was surprisingly good. not over cooked- the sauce was acidic.. but palatable but not bad- at least homemade. I felt bad for the volenteers that they had.. 1/2 of them didnt show up.. so they were really backed up and slow.. my mother of course game them MY phone #... told them I was a chef and voleteered me for any future endevours... ( rolling my eyes) not that i wouldnt have.. its of course the miriam way she did it- loudly and like rip torn meets ethel merman or something like that.. :p
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Su
Devon woke me up at 7am because he desperately needed to find the lego stormtroopers he slept with. After HE finally found them i made coffee and stumbled into the games room only to find that russell and robbie had stolen the modem once again to play ps3 in russells bedroom late last night... and left me an inapproriate obscene picture that says to SUE from your SON on it... hmmm time for a lecture when they got up.
Its been a long week. when IS it not a long week? dean came home late tuesday afternoon, very very tired. We had dinner and watched a movie with the kids and went to bed. Wed. he took russell to Toronto.. he came home around 230.. he had stopped at the seaway mall and picked me up one of the really nice candles i liked and an oil diffuser... then we had dinner... played wii for a bit, watched tv went to bed lol.-
oh yeah his sister from montreal called- she wants to have a big 60th anniversary party for deans parents in may. I am sitting there listening thinking ,... hmm BAD BAD idea... they will HATE it.. they HATE "hoopla" they will refuse to let us pay for dinner.. there will be a huge fight... dean will have to take his vacation he usually takes in the summer THAT weekend... and i will spend the entire time pretending our family is normal... angela has never even MET devon and hasnt seen russell since dean and i got married- so he was 5. so what do we do- hey ang! nice to see you! this is your nephew you have never seen before! this is his list of diagnosis's and those of russells too? you cant NOT say anything.. its pretty obvious.. esp. if you plan on spending a whole WEEKEND being around us.. and dean goes an invites them to STAY HERE TOO- hahaha i said um no...ironically when we went to see deans parents yesterday we found out deans mum wants to take hans away on a surprise trip that weekend lol.so much for THAT idea!!
I wish deans family would COMMUNICATE. even when i was trying to suggest alternative anniversary plans he took it as a personal attack and started getting hostile... i said look i am not the enemy here.. i am only trying to help. noone says anything.. he talks to ang once maybe twice a year and he hasnt talked to delia in YEARS AND YEARS. hasnt seen her in 8. Its doesnt help everyone lives so far apart or that they are sooo MANY YEARS in age apart. noone is close. noone shares ANYTHING.. unlike My FAMILY lol... gees my mother knows everything that goes on in my life..i said to mrs bilski yesterday that devon had autism, she said i dont know what that is, and in a voice meaning she had noone intention of finding out nor did she really care.- i can see why dean doesnt bother.. but he gets so defensive when you say anything derogitory against his parents either.. always defending them... thats their WAY... whatever, ... theres is no excuse for their behaviour.. for their coldness.... I know dean feels the same way. he hates it too.. what they say, how they act.. hes mortified. but they are also his parents.. and GOD only knows how they treated him as a child... you have to OBEY us.. we are your parents.. he was prob. terrified of them... mr bilski terrifies ME even in his 80s. he has this look about him.. its feral and crazy. whatever he was subjected to when he was a child in wartime has made him mental.I have tried desperately to piece the puzzle based on stories hes told us ... I am pretty convinced their family were jews forced to alter their entire lives.. and i am pretty sure he lost his older sister in a camp. My compassion wants to love them.. my love for GOD wants me to help them and love them... but its difficult to even think of them without hostility and for that i feel terrible guilt. I asked dean if he would be shocked if he found out if we were of jewish blood once the genetics testing was done... he said no. but even if he had papers to prove we were genetically linked to "sons of Arron' Mr bilski wouldnt believe it.. then he said ... but he might have known right along though right? as far as my side.. it wouldnt shock me in the least... and it wouldnt shock anyone whos def. met my mother ... lol maybe thats why the bilskis have had it in for me for the past 20 years.... they could sniff it in me lol... they had " jewdar" lol they have always refused to call my mother MIRIAM... always referred to her as MARIAN hahaha and blamed me for everything the jews did to them... cuz the "jews did it to themselves... they were greedy"... I really dont think mr bilski goes around spewing his anger about jews to just anyone.. just me... why? I have always told him what a good anglican i was... hmmm see they thought MY family was jewish from day one.. and never took no for an answer. they once told me deanie should never ever have married "outside of his race"... i said what... HUMAN? lol i didnt get it then... i assumed they meant german... which i thought was soo stupid... all of their daughters married french or other nationalities,... and in fact our family was from austria on my mothers side.. so... how close can you get what dear ole Hitler was in fact from Austria? NOW i get it.. they think I am a jew! ;)
ok enough rambling about the Bilskis.. its giving me heartburn and yes i did have dried out cake and maccroons on the menu yesterday :)
we went to the speghetti dinner thursday night at the port robinson community centre. it was surprisingly good. not over cooked- the sauce was acidic.. but palatable but not bad- at least homemade. I felt bad for the volenteers that they had.. 1/2 of them didnt show up.. so they were really backed up and slow.. my mother of course game them MY phone #... told them I was a chef and voleteered me for any future endevours... ( rolling my eyes) not that i wouldnt have.. its of course the miriam way she did it- loudly and like rip torn meets ethel merman or something like that.. :p
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Su
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
to dream the impossible dream....
I feel like my life has been taken over by appts. I finally listened to my messages since Friday- ( I know I am so bad) and low and behold- 2 more appts and one happens to be TOMORROW IN FRIGGEN TORONTO OMG!!) like THAT fits into my schedule :( Russell has an eeg at 1030 at the toronto western hospital... I think i am going to let Dean take him alone... Dr Consky's office left a message too.. Russell has an appt march 6th for pre op... and I just called dr Sinton's office for russells physical for his operation ( which is march 12th at 9am) for feb. 24th at 1020. he also has an orthodonist appt on march 19th and both kids have a dentist appt on march 26th... then you factor in we go to Toronto March 4th to the muscular/skeletal dr for Devon and March 11th to Dr Shapir... I am ready to hire a secretary AND a chauffeur. Perhaps I should just rent an apartment in Toronto... it might be cheaper then the gas/parking!!!
March is going to be NUTS. On top of the fact Russell all during his march break is going to be in NO shape after his surgery to be doing anything...and prob. in a horrible mood to deal with at all. FUN FUN FUN.
I put my lower neck/ left shoulder blade out last night. I was on the computer and i stretched then i heard/felt a POP and i knew... shit. I had a 30 minute jaccuzzi.. didnt do anything. I popped some gel caps and went to bed.. couldnt get comfortable.. finally fell asleep around 2aM. and guess what... I woke up and it was 730 in the freaken morning omg... I was frantic. I got the kids up in record time... but needless to say i had to drive them in... could barely turn my head... came home and heated my pack and put it on my neck... cant even go to the massage therapist because they are still dicking aroung with my insurance because of the car accident- and the letter/ referal from the drs etc... I am so mad about all that,... all they needed to do is start be back on... the auto ins. signed me OFF... but greenshield wants this and that and everything else... meanwhile I am dying.
I would love to win the 6/49 this weekend. 39 million WOW..(actually it would be 19.5 million if i won... my mother and i go in on the tickets every week... 50 50- hey not going to balk at that!!)
I could so many great things with that kind of money. ( hey including getting a friggen massage without having to worry about insurance lol) I would have my husband HOME and not on the bloody road 5 days a week... we could actually deal with all these appts and STILL see have some actual time to spend together!!!! pay off the house.. the car...buy a real second car, not a 13 year old piece of crap with the hood thats held down with a bungee cord- a screw the car- get that limo and chauffeur!! lol buy REAL furniture not crap from leons that breaks in 3 months... lol I could buy my brother and sil a HOUSE ( across the street from mine ;p) I could donate a ton of money for research for tourettes and autism and so maybe they would actually find meds or treatments or genetic research that would actually find a CURE so i wouldnt have to go to all these bloody appts so MUCH in the FIRST place lol... ahhh to dream..
March is going to be NUTS. On top of the fact Russell all during his march break is going to be in NO shape after his surgery to be doing anything...and prob. in a horrible mood to deal with at all. FUN FUN FUN.
I put my lower neck/ left shoulder blade out last night. I was on the computer and i stretched then i heard/felt a POP and i knew... shit. I had a 30 minute jaccuzzi.. didnt do anything. I popped some gel caps and went to bed.. couldnt get comfortable.. finally fell asleep around 2aM. and guess what... I woke up and it was 730 in the freaken morning omg... I was frantic. I got the kids up in record time... but needless to say i had to drive them in... could barely turn my head... came home and heated my pack and put it on my neck... cant even go to the massage therapist because they are still dicking aroung with my insurance because of the car accident- and the letter/ referal from the drs etc... I am so mad about all that,... all they needed to do is start be back on... the auto ins. signed me OFF... but greenshield wants this and that and everything else... meanwhile I am dying.
I would love to win the 6/49 this weekend. 39 million WOW..(actually it would be 19.5 million if i won... my mother and i go in on the tickets every week... 50 50- hey not going to balk at that!!)
I could so many great things with that kind of money. ( hey including getting a friggen massage without having to worry about insurance lol) I would have my husband HOME and not on the bloody road 5 days a week... we could actually deal with all these appts and STILL see have some actual time to spend together!!!! pay off the house.. the car...buy a real second car, not a 13 year old piece of crap with the hood thats held down with a bungee cord- a screw the car- get that limo and chauffeur!! lol buy REAL furniture not crap from leons that breaks in 3 months... lol I could buy my brother and sil a HOUSE ( across the street from mine ;p) I could donate a ton of money for research for tourettes and autism and so maybe they would actually find meds or treatments or genetic research that would actually find a CURE so i wouldnt have to go to all these bloody appts so MUCH in the FIRST place lol... ahhh to dream..
Sunday, February 15, 2009
hmm "dumb and dumber" or "step brothers?""
had an interesting afternoon yesterday. I felt like I was trapped in a weird version of the movie step brothers... the part of the movie where the boys "will ferrell and John C. Reilly" try and make their bed into bunk beds... only russell and robbie werent making bunk beds they were just trying to FIX it... of course russell and r0bbie kept referring to the movie every two seconds and quoting it word for word.. ( rolling my eyes)
however they were equally dumb about going about it. I tried to let them deal with it as long as I could, see if they could come up with a solution but eventually had to go down and stand over them for basically two hours or they ( or who i will refer to as "dumb and dumber" would have ended up with exactly what they DID have in the movie...all they did was giggle and laugh and make inappropriate comments.. and act like they were on something.. which would make more sense.. but unfortunately they were just being their normal immature selves... add russell to the mix who has adhd, ocd, and multiple challenges I was counting to ten A LOT lol.
moral of the story... dont buy crappy ( but expensive!!) beds from LEONS if you have big teenagers sleeping in them or you will end up with this. This bed in question is only 3 years old and it wasnt just a one time it broke thing.. it was breaking since basically the day we got it piece by piece.. the first year we were able to replace those wooden slats you see in the pic under warranty... after that nope. and no they werent jumping on it... but between the two of them they are 400 lbs of kid. guess we have to go out and get a new bed SOON...
I just hope I dont have the two of them at 40 living with us...
let's see what today brings shall we??? gotta love long weekends with teenagers ( and kids!) NOT!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
saturday morning so far-
well I almost got to sleep by myself last night. Devon fell asleep on the couch in the games room so I picked him up and put him in his own bed. Maybe I jinxed it when i was talking to dean around 1100pm and told him this because Devon then appeared on the stairs saying he was "too hot" and didnt want to sleep. I attempted to put him back in his bed 3 times even with a story, 2 pep talks and a mild lecture.. like that worked,... 5 minutes later he was in my bed. sigh. I will try again tonight. i am hoping on the increase ( meds) he will be back to the falling asleep a little earlier and staying asleep through the night... I just wish i had my own bed when Dean wasnt home.
My back is killing me and I cant wake up this morning. I feel like I was drinking last night but didnt have a drop. I am on my 4th coffee and 3 glasses of water... been up for 1 1/2 hours and i had 7 hours sleep. I know i have to start cleaning.. I got my central vac back on thursday and I really should be vaccuming in here. The games room is a sty and i dont even want to see what the kids did in the rec room last night when they were watching movies last night. I also have to do devons laundry and his bedding and ours. Yuck. I hate housework lol. I know as soon as the big kids roll out of bed the fighting will begin... they will get on Devons nerves and vice versa and i will have to play referee. I love it how I have Robbie over here every weekend too... hes a great kid sure.. but its never been reciprocated. Every weekend his parents get a free weekend... their kid gets free food.. a free taxi.. free supervised entertainment... and i get stuck with another teenager in here to look after, lucky me. I realize they live in an apartment so it makes it hard to have another kid in there... but what about when they lived in the semi? they were there for years!!! and it doesnt help they dont have a car.. so i have had to pick him up and drop him off for years... i guess thats the price to pay for russell having a decent friend. Some of the friends hes had... well WOW. If i have to have Robbie here its a small price to pay then like the weekend he went off to Brantford with that Aarron... omg...however one weekend would be nice to have where russell went to robbies ALL WEEKEND like he comes here,... The kid lives here 2-3 days a week. robbie actually listens to me too. Hes a good kid.. and they are quiet and when I need something done they do it. Its not like they are running around like idiots.. its always a pleasure to have robbie here.. otherwise I wouldnt HAVE him here... it just doesnt seem , well, fair.
Dell Finally took out their payment I see. Only took them 5 days later... I can believe they had the nerve to say I WAS in arrears because THEY were trying to take it out of the wrong account.. forget the wrong account.. it wasnt even MY account they were trying to take it out of... who knows whose account it was lol. hope the other person got it sorted out AND they don't try and charge them or ME for some stupid nsf fee!!! stupid people... nothing bugs me more than inept people... no inept people that call you up and YELL at you that you didnt make PAYMENT... i said its been SITTING there for a MONTH waiting for you to take it... what account are you TRYING to take it out of???? and then ask me when THEY finally fix the problem so when can we take payment??? how about 5 days ago when it was DUE???? i understand problems and mistakes happen... so DONT call me and YELL at me like I am bouncing the payment and/or on purpose... plus how did this happen when i already HAVE an account with you people at the same address and same phone # that comes out every month ( for 4 years aready) with no problems from the same account i wanted it too?>?? - shaking my head-
a dr from toronto called yesterday - a dr Philpot- hes muscular/skeletal.. apparently we have an appt for march 4th,... so now i have to figure out where the heck it is... i have an address and the info... march is going to be hectic... the 11th we go back to toronto to the tourettes clinic.. then the 12th is russells surgery.. somewhere in between russell has to have pre op... and an appt with dr sinton for a check up... then off for the surgery plus both kids off for march break...also have to take the kids for blood work this week... devon HATES needles.. took 2 nurses plus dean to hold him down last time.. FUN.
well devon wants to get on here... maybe it will entertain him long enough for me to vaccum the main floor... i really dont wanna but i have to... sigh
great now i have the hiccups
till later-
su
My back is killing me and I cant wake up this morning. I feel like I was drinking last night but didnt have a drop. I am on my 4th coffee and 3 glasses of water... been up for 1 1/2 hours and i had 7 hours sleep. I know i have to start cleaning.. I got my central vac back on thursday and I really should be vaccuming in here. The games room is a sty and i dont even want to see what the kids did in the rec room last night when they were watching movies last night. I also have to do devons laundry and his bedding and ours. Yuck. I hate housework lol. I know as soon as the big kids roll out of bed the fighting will begin... they will get on Devons nerves and vice versa and i will have to play referee. I love it how I have Robbie over here every weekend too... hes a great kid sure.. but its never been reciprocated. Every weekend his parents get a free weekend... their kid gets free food.. a free taxi.. free supervised entertainment... and i get stuck with another teenager in here to look after, lucky me. I realize they live in an apartment so it makes it hard to have another kid in there... but what about when they lived in the semi? they were there for years!!! and it doesnt help they dont have a car.. so i have had to pick him up and drop him off for years... i guess thats the price to pay for russell having a decent friend. Some of the friends hes had... well WOW. If i have to have Robbie here its a small price to pay then like the weekend he went off to Brantford with that Aarron... omg...however one weekend would be nice to have where russell went to robbies ALL WEEKEND like he comes here,... The kid lives here 2-3 days a week. robbie actually listens to me too. Hes a good kid.. and they are quiet and when I need something done they do it. Its not like they are running around like idiots.. its always a pleasure to have robbie here.. otherwise I wouldnt HAVE him here... it just doesnt seem , well, fair.
Dell Finally took out their payment I see. Only took them 5 days later... I can believe they had the nerve to say I WAS in arrears because THEY were trying to take it out of the wrong account.. forget the wrong account.. it wasnt even MY account they were trying to take it out of... who knows whose account it was lol. hope the other person got it sorted out AND they don't try and charge them or ME for some stupid nsf fee!!! stupid people... nothing bugs me more than inept people... no inept people that call you up and YELL at you that you didnt make PAYMENT... i said its been SITTING there for a MONTH waiting for you to take it... what account are you TRYING to take it out of???? and then ask me when THEY finally fix the problem so when can we take payment??? how about 5 days ago when it was DUE???? i understand problems and mistakes happen... so DONT call me and YELL at me like I am bouncing the payment and/or on purpose... plus how did this happen when i already HAVE an account with you people at the same address and same phone # that comes out every month ( for 4 years aready) with no problems from the same account i wanted it too?>?? - shaking my head-
a dr from toronto called yesterday - a dr Philpot- hes muscular/skeletal.. apparently we have an appt for march 4th,... so now i have to figure out where the heck it is... i have an address and the info... march is going to be hectic... the 11th we go back to toronto to the tourettes clinic.. then the 12th is russells surgery.. somewhere in between russell has to have pre op... and an appt with dr sinton for a check up... then off for the surgery plus both kids off for march break...also have to take the kids for blood work this week... devon HATES needles.. took 2 nurses plus dean to hold him down last time.. FUN.
well devon wants to get on here... maybe it will entertain him long enough for me to vaccum the main floor... i really dont wanna but i have to... sigh
great now i have the hiccups
till later-
su
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