day 3 of back to school... smoother the past couple of days compared to the first morning ( OMG ACK ACK ACK) but Dean has been home which has helped.. and devon has had a good first couple of days... just waiting for the school is ****ing boring and i want to stay home which will come..i hope it comes later rather than sooner.. sigh.

dean left a day early- this morning at 10... I was NOT happy.. he was NOT happy... he has to go down to pick up his pos truck thats still in Orlando- supposely fixed... for the third time... dean says if the M***er F***er breaks down again hes taking a %&$#@ plane home...hes a tad pissed ...

because his truck broke down last trip he didnt even get home until tuesday after 8 and was beyond his "normal" exhaustion... basically ate, watched an hour of tv and went to bed... and since i was %^&*$ exhausted from lack of sleep because of devon- i went to bed too. Wednesday we got up at the crack of stupid to get the kids going...russell leaves at 715..then finally seeing devon off after 8.. and then running out to do errands.. got back afternoon, i started dinner. he cut the grass, hoed the garden then made hotsauce... after dinner we were watching tv and his boss called.. which totally irritated us both.. and then went to bed at 10...did i even SEE my husband this week? it doesnt friggen feel like it! have i mentioned lately i HATE HIS JOB?? I am hoping devon doesnt give me an extra day of torture now because daddys not home, esp. in the morning tomorrow...and now i will be sitting here all week thinking we are a day ahead- since he leaves friday mornings not thursdays normally. this morning i told dean I dont know how to act when he something comes up... if i pretend it doesnt bother me and reassure him.. he thinks i dont miss him or care... if i make a big deal and tell him how pissed I am i never see him.. then HE gets irritated and pissed... I cant win!

I really should be doing something productive.. but to hell with it.. this is the first couple of days i have had ANY BREAK since %^&#$ JUNE... so to hell with cleaning or getting on the treadmill or the rest of the errands i have to do since dean left early-etc.. I am lounging ... at least for another hour when russell gets home.. ( 245) and i go get devon from the bus at 335. I will be more productive tomorrow, promise :)